randoms!

has anyone ever had this feeling like they are being watched? like every step you take is being monitored and recorded or something? or is my paranoia just kicking in again??
when i walk into school, i feel like someone is looking at me and actually following me. i am thinking maybe it is all in my head-- but its getting more pronounced every day. (maybe its all in my head)

how can i call someone my friend when?
- i have to weigh every word i say
- if i say one thing to the person this night, in less than 24hours i would have heard the exact same thing from another person
-and thus i have to lie about everything and sometimes not say anything at all
-and this results to ME being the bad friend

anyway! i have soo much work to do now. so i will update you guys later. and i am sorry i have not been commenting on blogs, its just stress with school and work. but i do read them! :-)

p.s i am not over that guy in my last post. and nw i hear they are on a break =/

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mehn

am in trouble.. am lusting after my frnds boyfriend. i tried to make a deal with God. i felt like if i stay away from the things i really enjoy, that he will make it stop. this my method usually works for me so i thought the same will apply in this serious situation.. So i stayed away from twitter and blogging-- even reading blogs! i stayed away for like 3 weeks.. i had not even seen the dude or my friend for a long while nw; till yesterday..

the thing is that i had dated the boy before.. but i dndt tell her because she would have used that as an excuse not to date him. and i lied because i thought i was over him =/. plus she really really liked the dude..
i dont know what else to do.. i cant keep hiding and avoiding my friend and the dude..

i hope it will pass..
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hey!!

hey guys..

i know i ave been missing for awhile. its not my fault o my laptop is just a messup; and i got it like last month. so now i am typing from a desktop (and it feels so wierd). i have really been caught up in this blog that i just found out about. the guy is hilariouss diary of a naija bad boi

Well i sent the email to my dad and he responded lol! this is a bit of the letter that i sent

1) my phone has been rendered technologically and socially incapable of performing most functions such as web browsing etc
2) it has most of the functions that are useful in our day and age
3) you know u dont want me to suffer
4)my present cellular phone goes is incapacitated as it erases data at its own will
5)as a student, the data in question is important to me
6)the phone has a very long life span so you dont have to worry about getting me a new one in the next two to three years
7) as my birthday is approaching i thought that this would be an early birthday present
8) you know you dont want me to suffer


yes i made a point twice.. it was for emphasis. nd i did not continue after number eight mehn. it was just a long thing. i was even having doubts about getting the phone. i sent the letter to his PA and forwarded it to his email. I did not get any reply from any of them. i just gave up on the whole issue and was thinking about how to persuade my mother to get me the phone instead. after what seemed like forever, my mum said that she doesnt have time for buying a new phone for me and that if she buys for one, she has to buy for all.

fastforward to three days ago. she arrived to see me and what did she bring with her?? my blackberry! he sent it through her; he did not want to give me the cash. i wanted the bold but he got me the tour... which i love even moree =]


p.s i was eating peppersoup and i put my finger in my eye.. typical me
is it true that lady gaga is a hemaprhodite?? ( abi is it an??)


sweet dreams y'll

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hello people!!

i have finally got the twitter bug.. i cant go a day without tweeting!! its so cool because u get to follow ur fav celebs and if u r lucky enough, they may actually reply you. i also know when they are streaming live!! its really cool.

anyway, its been awhile i know. i have been dulling. its rather sad. i am currently scouting for a new apartment so that is what has been taking my time and money. plus i think i am gonna quit from my current job. i am never working in retail ever again. the costumers are always right until they are proven stupid. i am working in the store so it makes sense that i will know where things are kept right? but nooo; some people just have to argue and try to do my job for me.. arghh!!

my daddy is a very funny man. lol. i told him that i need to get the black berry and that it only costs about $400. this is how the convo went

me- hi daddy

dad- hello my love. i guess you want something?

me- (innocent voice) ahh!! daddy am hurt! how can you say that?? can't i just call you?

dad- ha! u just call?? remember the last time you just called? you wanted some money..

me- i dont know about that daddy. i jst called to say that i love you--

dad- and i love you to.. so how much this time?

me- since you asked.. i want to change my phone..

dad- what wrong with your current phone?

me- nothing.. i just dont like it anymore?

d- is that so?? ok.. can u send txts with your phone?

me-yes daddy

d-can u call people with it?

me-yes daddy..

d- and u can take pictures with it yes?

me- yes daddy..

d- then you dont need a phone

i was like omg!!! tough much?? anyway after much begging.. this is the email i got.

"the new phone in question is still under consideration. i have attached in this email a letter headed paper and the format in which i want you to send an email to me. i want you to clearly state 10 reasons why you need this blackberry phone. i want it double spaced and in a size ten font. send a copy to my P.A and she will know what to do."

lmao!! i called my mum o! she just started laughing and told me to as i was "instructed" so i am still writing the letter o! now i am thinking the phone isn't worth it :-P 

suggestions anyone??

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UPDATE!

my roomie is sooo lucky that i have a blog.. asin serzly.. i just wanted to hurl the nearest sharp item at her head and see how she likes it!
first of all.. the babe left the shower running in the washroom and went off to her room. when i got back from class what did i see? the whole apartment wet! when i knocked on her door, all she could say was "am so sorry laa!!"
secondly her boyfriend nearly burnt my poor kitchen down. only God knows what they were doing in the room that made him forget that he was FRYING something on the burner.. the smoke alarm went off and thus the firemen came.. all the while i just went "dont worry. everyone makes mistakes"
the height was when she threw my passport in the trash!! according to her she thought it was trash! like seriously! how does three booklets of green nigerian passport sealed in a ups envelope now look like trash?? i made her go to the big dump outside and look for my passport o! i stood beside her as she looked for the passport. but i saw it before she did and i took it before she saw it. but she still kept on looking while i laughed to myself.
the part that actually pissed me off was the fact that she did not even apologize or feel remorse! she just kept saying "its not my fault laa!!"
anyway i later told her that i had found it and she can chill. she came to my room this morning with chocolate muffins.. the crusty type (just how i like it) :-D so i am gonna cut her some slack.. just for nw..

take care!
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if there is one thing that i know that i have in my life its patience.. but when you keep quiet and try and actually be patient, people take you for a fool. i am a very nice happy-go-lucky kinda person; and i dont get angry easily.. but when i do...
as i write this post i am tryna vent some of my frustration and anger.. some people are definitely going down this night

i'll update later

p.s i am not mad o!!

YAY!

i have eight followers!!
i never thought anyone will follow my blog! :-D. am HAPPPYY!! thanks my fellow bloggers.. ur giving me a reason to blog somemore!!

take care
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some babes are trying o!
they will be chopping shit from their so called boyfriends just so that they wont break up with them. just because he buys them LV purses and MK shoes.. isnt ur happiness worth a lot more than that?? how can you tell ur boyfriend "i love you" and the only reply you get is "i know you do".. Like yo!!! i dont think i can handle that from anyone!
the "boyfriend" will now be using you as errand gurl and chef. dont get me wrong.. there is nothing wrong with cooking for ur boyfriend; but when you take the pains to prepare something for him and he tells you that your cooking in "rubbish" and he "should have used the money to buy mcds instead"; doesnt that tell you something??

anyway!!
i called my mum as soon as i heard about MJ's death. if u see tears enh!! mehn! i knew she loved him.. but not that much!!. my dad is nw keeping a collection of all the LP's he had of him.. thriller, Bad, of the wall. etc.. he said he is gonna put them in a glass case and hang them on the wall of his study..

at the back of my mind i was like hmmn.. if not for the love i had for MJ and my dad, i would just sell those things off on ebay! apparently people will pay a lot for his original albums lol! but yeah. that is never gonna happen.. i might as well kiss my life goodbye!!

RIP MJ.
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i just rembered something funny that happened to me when i went back to nigeria for christmas. i was on my way to london and i was on the phone with my mum as i was passing the customs people. when the customs lady reached me, she looked at my passoport and went

"is this passport even legal?"

i was dumbfounded for a moment and my mum who was on the fone just started laughing so much.. i had to hang up so that i could understand what i just heard. i cudnt believe it. i dndt answer her and she asked again "is the nigerian passport legal?"

i was like wot do you think? she gave me dis look dat said "bite me". i was like wtf??

she had to go consult some people at the front before she could stamp my passport

the annoying thing was that i was the only nigerian person on the flight. i felt so embarassed. like i ave serzly chopped because this nigerian passport thingy. when i was still in highschool some white dude came to me and gave me 1 cent and went "for the children in africa"



i didnt even answer him. it was my frnd dat wanted to slap him.. lol!!



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i ave some interesting habits.. i dunno if they are gud or bad..

i dunno how to eat bread properly.. like i eat the crusts and throw the middle bit away... its either dat or i just eat the top and the bottom of the loaf. i feel the "nutrients" and the "sweetness" can be found at those brown areas..

i dislike cereal. if it isnt sugar-coated or honey glazed; i cant eat it. the one i absolutely cannot stand is cheerios.

i hate whole milk. if i must take milk at all, it has to be partly-skimmed or completely skimmed.

i cant stand burgers. i think its bcos i had a lot of it when i was younger. if i had to take it. i'll just take out the meat and it the bottom bun..

this is the habit my frnds cant stand... if we go out 4 pizza, i jst take the hard bit of the pizza and throw the filling bit away..

if u gimme a dish of rice and chicken, it is likely that u r wasting your time bcos i will just eat the chicken and give you back the rice untouched

i dont like chocolate cake

if i have to take cake at all, i'll just eat the crusty bit.. :P

oh yh! i hate that unripe plaintain. esp when its cooked (secondary schl in naij)

i love beans, HATE moinmoin

i dunno if i am the only person who hates indomie. i have like boxes of dem sitting in my room.. maybe i shud start selling them :P

am too tired. i cant think anymore.. its like 3am.. i'll update it when i am strong enuf.. =/

tell me wot u think tho
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i just want to dedicate this post to my parents..
its not easy oh! training 4 children + 1. i say plus 1 because they are training my cousin who is in ireland. then there is 1 in canada, 1 in london, 2 in yankee..

especially my mum.. she has travel all around the world to visit us; if she leaves naij in june, she doesnt get back till september or october. kmt..

i told them to put us all in one country.. at least one continent; so that it will be easy for her to see all of us..

just tot i shud share my thoughts :D
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this is going to be a hurried post seeing as the champions league finals are gonna start in like 7mins...
i just had this huge fight with my bestie because of boy.. imagine. and its not like the dude is all that.. i cudnt stop laughing.. i shall update after the match..

UP MAN-U!
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hey!!
i want to thank everyone who commented on my last posts.. i have been having problems with my laptop and i cant seem to comment on my own blog..
i shud be sleep seeing as its about 4.48 am.. wonder when i'll get up :-P

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y cant i stop thinking about u?
is it because of the way u look at me when you want to kiss me
is it the way you hold me when i cry in your arms
is it because of the way you look at me when u are mad at me
is it the way ur lips feel on mine
is it because of the way i feel when i hear your voice?
is it because of the feeling i get when you say "i adore u"
is it because of the way your eyes lit up when u see me?
is it because of the way i feel like i always wanna be with you

i just cant stop thinking bout u :-(

i just wanna get that out of my system.. i have a problem.i seem 2 be able to help pple thru their own troubles. but i cannot help myself. whether it is school related family related or boy related, i always have the right words to say to my friends and what i tell them to do is usually the right thing and they get their expected results. y cant i do dat for myself? y cant i take d advice that i give others?
arrghh!!

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once bitten twice shy...

i cant believe it.
my ex (not the one in my last post) has been on my case for like 5 months now. he has been begging me to come back with him. i did not want to because i think he is just very stupid. while we were dating, he told me that i was the only girl and that he has not been dating for awhile. and of course i believed him and he sounded so genuine. i later found out that he was still with his ex and has been with her for awhile now. when i confronted him about it, he swears that thy just got back and he was going to tell me very soon.. when is soon please? at least did he not have the decency to let me know before the reunion happened?
Anyway, he has been on my case since november saying that he is sorry and that he would not do it again. i told him to his face that i do not trust him and that he is very very silly for doing that to me. i kept begging and sending me messages and showing up at my doorstep and other very annoying things like that. so when that my baby messed up i decided to see if i could cut him some slack. i then decided to meet up with him so that we could discuss stuff. when we met up. i asked him if he was seeing anyone else and he said no. i asked again and i reminded him of whet he did last time. he said he was single but that he had a babe but the girl was to clingy so he broke up with her awhile back. he then apologized for what he did and promised never to do it again. i believed him and we decided to meet up later in the week
i woke up and what did i find on this facebook page? a whole album dedicated to him and his "ex" with comments like 'you guys look so cute' and 'you guys are meant to be'; and him replying with comments like 'yeah.. shes the one' and ' i love her so much'
i was like WTF?? how can you do this to me?! again!!!!

to say i feel stupid is an understatement.
he is gonna call today to when he should come pick me up.. hmmmm

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boyyss

u know how boys are always on your case when they want you to notice them and all of a sudden they just stop when they realize that they "have you". and then at this point poor you might honestly be falling for them or you might be in too deep.
i am just soo pissed off! there is this guy that has been on my case since like october last year and i have been putting him on a very long thing like not returning his fone calls and basically ignoring him . but then i was feeling bad for him and all because i thought he was very genuine. then i started responding a little like calling him back like once a week. i finally told him that i dont trust him because he is friends with my ex and i am sure that they are all the same. he swore on everything that he isnt like him and that he is cool and will never cheat or anything. i believed him.
and now that i finally tell him that i lie him he is relaxed and tryna "take things slow" ARRGGHHH!
and i really want to talk 2 him rite nw.

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my baby...

i still love u...

i never knew that anything like that could happen to me cause of the way that i usually carried myself and all. he really suffered in my hands oo!! there was no excuse give on this earth that i did not give this boy so that he will leave me alone. lets call him F.
I met F on my birthday two years ago. i just got back from london and was looking all bloated and stuff. i didnt have a party or anything so my closest friend just stopped by to give me a present . on her way out, i saw him... all 6 foot hotness of him. i started blabbing rubbish when i saw him... when i was greeting my friends mother, i was like "good morning ma" when it was like 11pm!! and when she was like "hows ur mum?" i go " oh they just slept off" i felt so embarrased .. :-S
anyway, i just kept thinking about him for like a week and then i receive a fone call and it went something like this

F: hey nameless
me: umm.. hey...
F: am really sorry to call at this time but i just wanted to see how you are doing
me: am ok..
F: my name is F... i am ur frndz cuzn.. i was wiv ha on ur birthday
me: (OMGGGG!!) ermm.. i cant rmbr u.. (hw can i 4get?)
F: when you where talking to my aunt u were like good morning when i am sure it was well past 10
me: ahh!! u dnt ave 2 remind me bout that...

and the boring conversation went on like that.. he kept on calling me everyday at the exact time so i was always looking foward to his calls. then after awhile we started that free call thing with MTN so we could talk for longer hours (at no cost) and we would talk from 12.30 to 4.00 everyday. he helped me through my weight issue but never mocked me about it. he would follow me jogging every morning and to the gym at night just to make sure i feel good about myself.

i remember the first time we kissed.. he was so shy about it. its not like he did not know how to or anything.. i guess he did not just know how i would react or something.. it was so sweet.. not hurried or anything.. just calm and peaceful. as we continued in our relationship, i started to call him my baby amongst my friends and all.. and the name just stuck.. baby.. All of a sudden, it did not seem like a random name anymore.. ( sounds cheezy huh?)

i never told him about my travelling for uni. i just could not bring myself to tell him. i told him that i was going 2 unilag and he was so thrilled cos we were in d same department and he was like we would be able to see him more often. when i did tell him.. it was just to dramatic for me to even describe.
at first he started laughing and was like i should stop playing with him. but when i was like i am leaving two weeks he finally realized that i was serious. he obviously was vexed and did not wanna talk to me.. i begged and pleaded and then he finally called me back.

he promised that he would never leave me and that he loves me and that we should make this work. but knowing him now.. i was like i dont think you would be honest because i wont be here for you when you need me. he swore heaven and earth.

*and look at where it landed me*

just wondering

is it true that you can only fall in love once? i have some friends that anytime they see a potential, they believe that they have fallen in 'love' with the person. i am just wondering.

and how can you tell when you have fallen in love? can't it be confused with lust or even infatuation?
i have soo many questions that need to be answered
:(

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